stardustcboy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- **YaaaaaaaaaWN!** is it really only 2:49pm? really? ugh. as you can probably tell i'm still completely bored. i took MeowMeow out to lunch and had a margerita. now i'm sort of spacy and dazed...partially due to the margerita (it takes a lot to put me under) but mostly due to the massive wad of meat, aka the "Sunset Burger", i ate alongside the ten tons of fries. yeah, total food coma. so i'm frantically trying to find something to pass the time...checking my buddies page like every 10 seconds, smoking a cigarette every 15 minutes, checking e-mail, checking notes, checking brickshelf, and just browsin' along on the lifestyle website. ya' know, using an online dating service to find a mate is a lot more different than using an online dating service to find a swingin'-fuck-tastic couple and/or single let me tell you! it's the same people. sure, they're hot and they take care of themselves and they like to fuck, but man, where's the new blood? not only that but like the pictures are all starting to look the same to me...squeezing fake boobs shot, shaved beaver finger shot, dancing on the pole shot, sitting in the tub shot, naked on the beach shot, spread canyon shot, ass shot, dildo shot... all the same. from profile to profile there i'm starting to see less and less of a difference between the various couples. all the women get boob jobs, they all shave/wax/layZerr their poontangs, similar lingerie, similar scenarios...complete clones. it's funny too the cliques that form. this couple has a shot of that couple in their profile, that couple has a shot of this couple...and then there's the parties...oh god, don't even get me started on the pictures of all the "Beautiful Party" attendees...ugh... makes me want to get those fake teeth, plaster myself with wads of fake hair, stick my gut out and take a picture with JeLLy in similar dress then put the words "Beautiful Party" on it. is it just me or does that seem hideously shallow? i must be taking crazy pills. yeah, that's probably it. seriously, maybe it's just this particular site? maybe? in any case the shallowness is slowly oozing its way into the various members here and there. you get your gems but they're few and far between. strangely enough JeLLy and my fav couples we met OFFLINE. how's that work? weird. the whole "couples dating" thing is rather odd anyway. it just always feels like there so much pressure to fuck, and reading through the forums on the site, it seems that a lot of the couples prefer it. their attitude being "we set up the date, we wanna' fuck, what's the problem?" i'm pretty easy overall. i have no problems just gettin' busy; but at the same time i like a level of trust. is that so wrong? i mean, jeez at least take us out on a second date before shoving your hand down my wife's pants! :-P really though, i think sometimes that the word "lifestyle" should be changed to... "another way for middle-aged men to pimp their wife for more pussy" oooooh! did that just sting a bit? i'm sorry!! i take it back. that's the other thing i notice. pic of hot young wife, pic of hot young wife, pic of hot young wife...last pic of stocky older man from the neck down. *rolls eyes* i won't go into it. in fact, i'll stop here. i know that several 'stylers come through here every day, even though they don't sign my guestbook. :-P i don't want to make anyone mad. but at the same time, does anyone else notice this lil trend? it's more difficult for JeLLy and i because i swear we're THE ONLY out-of-the-closet double-bisexual couple on the whole damn site. we get e-mails commending us on our "openess" then a list of reasons why the husband "has to keep his bi-ness in the closet." they range from "we have non-bi male/female playmates who we'd lose if they found out" to "he's more curious about oral from a guy" to "we won't get as many responses." it's pretty sad. you choose to do whatever you want i don't really care; but in the end you don't score any points with either of us and don't be surprised if we don't take the time to write you back. i check the "new couples" section to see if there are any new, young, both-bi couples...never...i'm serious. NEVER. anyway, i rant. i'm bored and so my mind is just sort of wandering all over the place. i guess in some ways i'm a bit envious of the bi-female/straight-male couples because they get invited to all the parties, they get all the action, and overall they're part of the majority. JeLLy and i would probably be open to swingin' with a bi-fem/straight-male couple save for the fact that we worry the man will want in on the action and then be all pissed off cuz JeLLy don't wanna' put out or something. usually when we view the bf/sm couples we're like "wooaH!!" when we see the girl, but then are like "eeep!" when we see the guy. neither of us are gonna' take one for the team, and we wouldn't expect the couple to either. so we just sort of lurk around. i must admit we do get approached by some very nice bf/bm couples, but more often than not they tend to be outside the age-range we're interested in. it's tough too because we've dated a few bf/bm couples who were around 36/40 respectively, and we didn't really have all that much to say. sure that would be fine when our mouths are full of cock and pussy, but...well...attraction is about 4/5 mental for us. blah, blah, blah. i'm not really sure where i'm goin' with this. i guess i'm just sort of waxing wishful thinking. some of the bf/sm couples are scrumdiddlyupmtious!! and i would like nothing more than to be fucked silly by them save for the straight male part. if only more men could just open their minds to the idea of fucking the shit out of me...i mean, i'm an incredible lay! come on boys! i'm a bottom! i'm not all that in to pounding a man in the ass...i'm the one who wants to BE POUNDED in the ass. i've got a great mouth, i know how to work my shit. for serious! well, nothing really can be done about it. different strokes for different folks ya know? can't blame 'em. *sigh* is the day over yet? JeLLy's goin' dancin' with the girls tomorrow night. what am i to do? i wish the boys i knew were a bit more social, but they're all introverts. my social life (when i was single at least) was through all my women. i need to dance and feel sexy too dammit! jeeez. ack! i'm rambling. i'm just gonna' stop right here. catcha' laters ya'll! ~B-)
2:49 p.m. - 2005-04-14 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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