stardustcboy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- God help me...i'm so boring...sleeping is much more fun to you... yay sunday. happy easter. i'm bored. figured i'd jump on and say hello. i know, i know...i've not been my usual self as of late. *sigh* i keep thinking i'm too young to feel this way. there was a time long ago when i had to practically beat 'em off with baseball bat for fear that my clothes would be ripped clear off my body at any moment. where'd the mojo go? eh, i think i'm just being a whiney bitch. where was i going with this? i dunno'...just rambling i suppose. i should have gone outside today, i should have done some work on friday, i should sketch more...get back into the creative cycle... i gotta' do something. i feel like i'm becoming a bore. where are all the erotic stories of old? the poetry? the deep philosophical thougths on life, the universe, and everything? i feel like it all goes nowhere. what's the point? sketch and sketch, but for what? not like anyone at work gives a fuck...not like it's going to make any difference...not like i'm any better than any of the other millions of artists in the world. i'm just one of the lil fishies...swimmin' around...a minnow...tiny, unnoticable...no one cares. gah, there i go again. any advice? anyone? bueller? i hate these types of thought processes. they're self-defeating, and i kick myself for thinking it. i need something to light my fire again...the pilot light is out and all i am right now is a bunch of gas...or something... so what to do? visit far off places? travel? no money. work out, increase physical activity? go to the gym? yoga? pilates? no money. well, on the bright side the weekend was pretty fun. and despite having no money it was fairly enjoyable. friday i didn't have to go in to work, they were moving around the office so they told everyone to work from home. but because the power was i out i couldn't log on to my computer at work from my computer at home so instead i played world of warcraft all day. jelly got home a bit early and our friends came over to hang out. they left around 10pm and some more of our friends came over at around midnight with some booze and other goodies. they didn't leave until 3:30am. we slept in a bit on saturday, woke up and did some laundry, i played more world of warcraft and then we went over to our friend MeowMeow's house to dye easter eggs. she got us some lil easter baskets filled with toys and candy. JeLLy's was all spongebob squarepants stuff, and mine was all LEGO stuff. then more people came over and we talked and laughed and drank a few brews. all in all it was a good time. we woke up pretty late this morning, and JeLLy decided to stay home and not visit her mother for the holiday. i made biscuits and gravy with bacon and eggs. it was my first attempt at biscuits and gravy. overall it was pretty good...though the biscuits were a bit on the crunchy side. :-P everything else was good though, and the gravy turned out rather nicely i must admit. then we started watching movies and JeLLy fell asleep. so i hopped online...surfed around my favorite sites a bit...played a little bit more world of warcraft...then decided to write a bit here. so yeah, not all that bad i suppose. i dunno what all that was about, what i was writing before, but i guess i just had to get it out. i figure when the air is warm and the sun is shining my energy levels will pick up a bit. i'll be more inclined to sketch and build stuff, go out and hike or sunbath, and generally be a bit more active and interesting...thus becoming a bit more active and interesting myself and not so much of a giant yawn-fest of doom. anyway, JeLLy's awake again so i'll sign off now. hope the rest of your sunday is nice and relaxing and that you all had a nice easter with family and friends. much love everyone! 7:48 p.m. - 2005-03-27 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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