stardustcboy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ...Workday Blues... hello hello cyberdenizens! it is i, your dearest narrator, popping in on this fine thursday...is it thursday?...it all bleeds together after a while. in any case...popping in on this fine weekday afternoon to wish you all well. things have been busy, fun, crazy, fun, busy, busy and busy over here in StarDust-land. the weekend went well, had a few cocktails friday night at the local watering hole; and had dinner with Mr. and Mrs. Dick on saturday night. dinner led to conversation, conversation led to kissing, kissing led to heavy petting, which led to some cock and titty sucking, which eventually led to me being impaled on Mr. Dick's ample manhood...sans a condom. talk about an idiotic screw-up. i broke a cardinal rule!! i seriously thought he had put it on (my ass was in the air and my face was pushed into the bed, i couldn't really see what he was doing back there...but i certainly could feel it!). i even told him, "get a condom and some lube"...i even saw him pull said items out of the drawer...or at least thought i saw. eh, in any case i feel dumb. thankfully, i trust that Mr. and Mrs. Dick are good, clean people and at this point in time there are no intense and agonizing burning sensations during urination, OR any strange and unusual bumps, welts, pustles, etc. isn't that delicious. despite, the slip, it was still a quite enjoyable time; and Mr. and Mrs. Dick are two very enjoyable people. did i mention i have a huge crush on Mr. Dick? anyway, i still feel bad about not double checking the condom situation; but i am resolute that next time there will be no such errors made on my part. you never can be too safe, ya know? take heed my dear friends! you can get swept up in the heat of the moment! sunday was just pure relaxation. didn't do much. then monday, tuesday, wednesday...well...work, work and work. not much else. JeLLy got a new job, i think the jury's still out on whether or not it's the job for her. at first she was really excited about it, but now after being there for a couple days she's already noticed some GLARING indescrepancies in management claims and some other stuff that have put a scare into her. i dunno, i tell her to stick it out and see where it goes. i mean, she was SO excited about it; but now i'm not so sure. i'm starting to think if it really is not what she expected then maybe she should drop it while it's still in its infancy? eh, what do i know? it took me almost 6 years to find my "ideal job"...but in my experience your "ideal job" can turn into your worst nightmare overnight. sometimes jobs that seem shitty at first end up being really rewarding in the end, so who knows? i guess you just have to go with your gut feeling? or maybe wait it out? i don't have all the answers. alls i can say is, if you're feelin' bummed out just go here. at least you know there are others who feel the pain of the working existence...and it's funny. it'll make you laugh, which is always good for chasing away the workday blues, right? anyway, i've got to learn to curb my advice giving. i think sometimes it comes off as commanding or something. i need to learn to let people just rant it out and keep quiet. i just have this intense need to help fix things when people come to me...either with words of advice, encouragement, or humor; but sometimes it's best to just shut up and not say anything at all. you give advice and people take it, then everything turns out shitty, it's your fault because it was your advice in the first place. you try to offer encouragement, and when more bad stuff happens people get mad because you gave them some sort of false sense of hope. you try to help people out by given 'em a little laugh and they think you're making fun of them and you're not taking their situation seriously. you really can't win. i guess in the end we all just need to realize that work sucks ass. no matter where, no matter who. it's always going to be shitty. why? BECAUSE YOU'RE NEVER DOING WHAT YOU WANT TO DO EXACTLY. you're always gonna' be doing what your boss wants, or what the company wants, or what a client wants, or a guest, or a customer, or a co-worker/producer/director/asshole/brown-noser. i like my job, thankfully, it's the best i've had in a while. but is it my IDEAL? fuck no. i'd rather be working on stuff that i care about. i'd rather be writing a screenplay, sketching, building 3d models for MY OWN GAME DESIGN, and ultimately working towards a goal and an end that will best serve me financially. a dream that will put ME on the map in the games/movie/entertainment industry. but that just ain't the way the world works...well...the capitolist world at least. if it was, then the last three attempts at starting a game company would have happened and i would be sitting pretty on a huge pile of revenue, taking treasure baths every fucking night. so for all you disgruntled employees out there, for everyone who is working a less than satisfactory job just to make ends meet, to everyone who doesn't even have a job... let's get drunk tonight. i'm reading you. ~B-) 1:42 p.m. - 2004-11-11 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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