stardustcboy's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ...Revenge of the Fuck Buddies... eesh...on a similar note... it seems that the ol' fuck buddies are comin' out of the woodwork as of late. tonight, g and i are going to a b-day party for an old fuck-friend she used to see. ugh. i'm really not wanting to be there...BUT...what's good for the goose is good for the gander, and many of my female friends that g has met were at one time or another a fuck-friend of mine. soooooo...i best take my medicine. not only that, but Miss L of all people has made a reappearance in my life. i'm supposed to go to lunch with her at 2:30 today...that's approximately an hour and fifteen minutes from now... i'm sort of not looking forward to it. i mean, i'm not sure if i really want to see her again... i had a THING for her and she's with some dude now and it's been over a year since we hung out AND i didn't even get the complimentary "good-bye" fuck either... but that's really not the point. the point is that i'm wrestling with some old feelin's...and it's rather painful to have her around. if you'll remember my search for a good traveling companion boiled down to g and miss L and i basically let time/fate do the deciding on that one. in the end miss L disappeared without a trace, didn't return my phone calls or anything and i just sort of assumed that i was merely a "fuck-friend" to her with no other REAL attachments beyond that (despite my own feelings in the matter). i guess i wanted her to fight for me...but was sort of upset that she didn't...upset that she seemed to feel i wasn't worth fighting for... ah well...in one way it'll be cool to see her and see how she's doing...in another it'll be hard to put away all that past stuff... either way, i'm not planning on making much more of an effort to talk/see/hang-out with her in the future. it's just one of those things that on second thought i feel is better left for yesterday... though it will help balance against my own feelings for meeting g's fucky-friend tonight...and will make the experience much more palatable... tit-for-tat quid pro quo even though she doesn't FEEL anything for him (besides his tremendously thick wang) nor did she REALLY for that matter...at least that is what she confesses... but i'm skeptical of MY OWN nature, and thus, the nature of ALL humans. am i projecting? LoL...yeah...i am. either way, her friend eric is spinning and i love that guy...amazing artist...so the beats will be phat and sexy...and just what the doc ordered to chase away the fucky-buddy-blues... tomorrow it's moving and stuff and sunday...???...who knows...maybe just chillin' and watchin' some new anime i bought... take care of yourselves out there party peeps (all 2 or 3 of you that read this) and have a great weekend! ~B-) 1:14 p.m. - 2003-09-26 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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