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A Frightful Dream

i had the oddest dream the other night...

i dreamt that i was married to Ali, and we lived in this fairly sizable house with lots of room so we'd let our friends stay over. one of our friends was this sort of non-descript female character archtype (in terms of my subconscious construct), no one i really know or have known in real life; but someone that in the context of the dream was a close friend of ours. ali HATED her. went so far as to lock her in the closet instead of giving her an actual room to stay in. i asked ali why she would do that to one of our friends and she said "because she likes you and i don't want you cheating on me." i tried to reason with her, allay her fears and help her set aside any hair-brained ideas that she may have been entertaining about me and this girl. which is strange because in the context of the dream my old next door neighbor robin was also living in this house with us; and in the context of the dream i was very much interested and attracted to robin. i told ali, in a sarcastic fashion, that if she felt that way about one of our girl-friends then she should probably lock up all the other girl-friends that lived in the house too just to be sure. but she didn't, just the non-descript one.
so then some indeterminable amount of dream-time passes. the non-descript lodger looks like some lil urchin, unkempt and disheveled, from living in the closet, but she still seems like she's happy. meanwhile, i'm goin' at it like a crazed weasal with robin behind ali's back just to spite her. i remember succinctly thinking in the dream that i'd "show her" in some weird sense of justice and/or vindication. well, this went on and over time the girl in the closet kept getting weaker and skinnier and i'd feed her food and bits of bacon through a slit under her door before going over and having it out with robin in her room. ali was out of town visiting her parents, and as was the fashion in the dream context, i'd feed the girl in the closet and then go get freaky with robin; but this time ali came home early! i was terrified. i rushed around half naked trying to find clothes but they all were in the closet with the girl and i had just fed her a big piece of pizza. so i ran back to robin's room and laid down and tried to act non-chalant like nothing was wrong and in bounces ali. at first a slight, but fleeting, look of shock passed over her face as her brain realized just what it was she was witnessing (and the following realization of what she MISSED just moments before); but then, her face changed and she was all smiles and laughter. i was disarmed and wasn't sure how to take it; but she sat down on the bed next to both robin and i (both buck naked) and started chatting with robin about this and that and other things...i was so nervous i blurted out "i'm sorry, you should have locked her away too!" surprisingly she was very understanding, and said "it's all right, i want you to have fun. i'm not mad at all and it's good that you have a playmate while i'm out of town." and other things to that effect...i was floored...shocked...stunned...and above all TERRIFIED. flitting and skittering like a cockroach behind her white smile was a very horrifying level of malice. she gave me a hug and consoled me, her words a hissing whisper, and as she did so she was facing robin over my shoulder...i ALMOST began to feel a bit better, but then i heard her half-whisper-half-mouth to robin behind me "i'm going to carve you up you little whore." and as she released me i turned to look at robin and she was this big bloody mess on the bed. all pieces lay neatly, arms together, legs together...guts and innards neatly on a plastic sheet, her head wrapped in plastic. in horror i spun around as the dreamscape melted and rearranged itself. ali stood before me with a large butcher's knife...an almost cartoonishly proportioned cleaver glinting with fresh blood. in the corner the girl in the closet sat chewing on a piece of raw flesh that had been cut from robin's torso. ali, still grinning triumphantly, her face pulled taught in a huge smile that reached beyond the sane proportions of her face she spat at me "from now on, i'll just lock YOU up! And feed you the rest!"

4:26 p.m. - 2007-01-23

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